Update!

Check my links up above. I've added some links to friends of mine, so go check them out nao! xD

Let's see... my room's going up just fine. An idiot moved out of the neighborhood today (His name is John. My neighbor, who was housing him because he is her nephew, got so sick and tired of his utter BULLSHIT that she sent him to a homeless shelter. FINALLY!) and I am so glad that this happened! It means I can go over there again without my purse being abducted and shoved down some dirty man's pants. =_= I would call him a dirty OLD man, but he's a year younger than I am. ... I'm not old yet! I SWEAR!

Oh, plus I have mormon missionaries coming over this Wednesday.  They left me a book of mormon the last time they were over here... I enjoyed talking to them, and I invited them back just so I could return the book. I am quite happy with my religion, thank you very much, and I don't feel the need to be 'saved' by a carbon copy of several hundred religions that came before our time. (See Zeitgeist Movie for where I get my information. Not knocking the Christian religion here, I'm just saying that several hundred different religions acted as prototypes for what seems to be a man-made religion.) They're fun to talk to, they even enjoy my incense and don't bother my altar! I thought they'd try to deface it once they found out that I'm what they would call a "devil worshiper." I had to educate them on the Wiccan religion, and even then it was a very brief, very generic education because I'm not about to give away craptons of information so they can use it against me and other Wiccans they come in contact with.

Anyway. Went shopping today. That was interesting. I got some herbs and such for some of my magic... I'm looking forward to using them, especially since two people that are really close to me are sick: Loki, and The Fatal Beauty. Both are long-lasting illnesses that they've both had for months. (Well, The Fatal Beauty more than Loki, but you get my point.) I'm going to perform them on midnight, providing the moon is in the right phase for said workings. I'd prefer it to be full, as there's more energy flowing through the air while it's full, but both of these things need to be resolved quickly. I'm not waiting more than three days, unless the moon will be void within those three days.

So, I also have a question of morality for everyone who gives a damn, and it's preceded by a rather long-winded story... you have been warned.

So, I went to the gynecologist a while ago. She tests me for a non-communicable disease called PCOS, which stands for Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. In non-medical terms, cysts on the ovaries that can pop at random and be extremely painful. Symptoms of PCOS include obesity, depression, unexplainable dark patches and tags on the skin, irregular and very heavy periods, FACIAL HAIR and extremely painful cramping.

I have all of those symptoms. Every last one of them.

So, I do the logical thing: I tell my doctor the symptoms I have, and then tell her that I think I have PCOS. She sends me in for an ultrasound to look for cysts. Now, that would be fine except that's not how you properly diagnose PCOS. You have to have a blood test to check for high levels of testosterone in your blood. So, the ultrasounds (which were painful due to a new INTERNAL mechanism for ultrasounds) come back negative. Instead of doing a blood test, she schedules me for surgery to get the excess blood buildup in my uterus out and gives me HORMONAL birth control for after the surgery to make sure I don't have three and a half month long periods again. PLUS, said birth control is KNOWN to make you gain weight.

I go to a second appointment with the same lady. She sees that I've gained ten pounds and suddenly it's all my fault because I'm "Eating more chocolate, drinking more soda, and not exercising." BULLSHIT. I didn't change a damn thing in my diet or exercise routine... I just started taking that damn hormonal birth control pill to keep myself from dumping the entire contents of my circulatory system onto my hardwood floor!!!

Then, I have a gynecologist appointment on the second of june. at my last appointment three months ago, she told me that if I did not loose at least 10 pounds and quit smoking that she wouldn't give me the birth control I need to keep from bleeding out every three months.

So, having said all of that, here's what I'd like to know from you: 1) is she just in her actions? In other words, were you in her position, knowing what you know now, would you take the same course of treatment she did - ultrasound, and then SURGERY?  2) Am I crazy for wanting a second opinion, and maybe even wanting to drop her like a bad habit and find another doctor? (My parents think I'm crazy for that one.) 3) Is it wrong of her to deny me the pills that are keeping me from loosing shit-tons of blood over long periods of time, and possibly saving my life, just because I couldn't loose ten pounds?

Please leave me a comment and let me know what you think! I'm always open for different opinions and inputs!

Blessed Be,
SNT

Eating: peanuts
Drinking: water
Listening: Katy Perry, E.T.